Thursday, August 20, 2009

obscured.


sometimes i wonder if im the only one who sees anything the way i do.

sometimes im curious about whether anyone else can see the same sunset,

feel the same ending, or notice the same absense.


or is it just me?


sometimes i wonder if anyone else in the world could maybe be reading this,

and feeling a sigh of relief.

or am i completely alone in this?


is it just me?

Monday, August 3, 2009

a long distance


Woah its been a while since my last blog, probably because I'm quite certain I have no avid readers, and also because I've been away on holiday....

I've decided to slowly let go of all my strings, the ones that keep me bound so tightly with home.

because the reality is, this is my home now,and I need to move on.

ha.

easier said than done hey...
I come from a small town tucked away in the middle of nowhere, where gossip reaches your ears about things you havent even done yet, and everyone you meet knows everyone you already know somehow...
and the thing is, when you leave, if your one of the few that make it out, you dissapear... you become part of the little towns secret history, and they forget you..
much like the Shire in the Lord of the Rings, you can return after saving Middle Earth and the response your likely to get when you walk into the local bar is "Oh. havent seen you in a while, been busy?"
this would be fine, but those people are my life, well, the last four years of it at least, and it pains me to think that the memories and thoughts i so cherish will become dusty old snapshots no one ever looks at, once I've gone.
at least, the one thing I can hold onto is, this town will never change. sure, places will close down and new ones will open, and sure, people will date other people and befriend other friends, but if I ever come home, it will all still be there, in the corner of the world...waiting.
and in the meantime, id like to see the rest. the unexplored. the unexplained. the new...